Teenage damn feelings #02
June 21, 2015 Sunday
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It was afternoon and it's raining, and i'm all alone. The rain wasn't that heavy, but i hate it when it rains. I don't know. But raining makes me feel sad. And i realized that the weather really affects my mood. I usually get sad and frightened when raining, and many of my friends knew that.
The aura in this house was very lousy. I'm here at my Aunt's home at Paranaque since last night, slept by myself cause my cousin was working at night and my tita had a camping or let say bonding with her workmates out of the city.
Yesterday morning, i was still upset since last day because of the conflicts about my schedule in school. I really need to tagged my subjects, but the line was long, super long... And i get confused on the process of tagging, and all i knew is that, that day was the last day of tagging and paying of tuition fees cause that was also the last day of adjustment period. So i decided to pay instead of tagging my one subject left. I also had a classmate who didn't tagged her subject cause there were no available slot in our chairperson's account, and that makes her upset too. She also didn't have a P.E subject.like me. So i said to myself that it was ok for not having a P.E rather than not paying your tuition fees (cause all i knew that was the last day of payments as i have said earlier).
I pay my tuition fees even if the line was too long. I waited for 3 hours just to pay, and finally! All i knew is that i'm problem free today! Yay! I text my best friend Rejhon, if where he is, and he said he is still on the meeting with the student leaders from different universities and he also said that my crush (okay let we just call him "daddy long legs") was the speaker by that time, he was the president of Anakbayan, a communist org. And thats why i went there, but first i hesitate to go inside cause all of them was an activist but Julius and Rejhon, pull me inside and Tadaa!!!! All of them stared at us, as in we caught all of their attentions. And then i fakely listen to daddy long legs about the propagandas they planning to do. And i simply laugh, when he said like this..
NV
"Sa mga social medias.. Pwedeng ayun din ang gamitin sa mga propaganda. Yun yung ipost sa facebook, hindi yung mga kung anu-ano lang. Mga Pabebe kayo! haha"
Err, I don't know but when i hear the word "mga pa-bebe kayo" i get Kilig. hahaha I often heard it to a boy that says like that (maybe there were magic in that words).
And then, after that i find the form in my bag, and Julius said "Oh, anong hinahanap mo?"
Me: "Yung form!" Luckily the form has gone..
Julius: "Bigyan na lang uli kita, Rejhon bigyan mo nga.."
Rejhon: "Anong gusto mo yung bago?"
Me: "Oo sige."
And then Rejhon gave me the form, i don't know what the heck i did. I just fill up the form, i don't know, i'm losing my mind. And then of course the two boys were so happy, because finally, i was already a member after a year.
I didn't finished the meeting cause i have a class, and Rejhon accompanied me down the 3rd floor, and we saw Mariel looking so happy cause she already tagged her subjects and luckily she had a P.E subject, and i get upset, cause an hour ago she is the one who was very miserable about her subjects but now, i'm the one who's looking kawawa.
I got really upset, i can't think normally, added up by joining the org, ugh. Julius said awhile ago, that there will be a Cultural night, and we're going to recite a poem. I just want to escape, but Julius called me, and i promised to Rejhon that we will go home together. Ugh, After that we went to Charlie Bldg. where they introduced me as one of their "kolektibs" and gosh daddy long legs was there too, i thought they go home early. I want to talk to him when he was alone, there were time that he's like he want to talk too others but he was shy to approach. Also me, i was to shy to approach cause i was a newbie.
And then the Cultural Night begins, different orgs are there, and they showcase different talents, but most of all sung. It was fun night, and i suggest to Julius that we also sing next time.
After the cultural night, we decided to eat dinner. Maybe i really need to adjust for several changes like when were eating and i'm so full but there were rice left, i really don't want to eat but they said "kailangan mong kainin yan, kawawa naman ang mga magsasaka sa Hacienda Luisita" huhu. I forced myself to eat. Also when were eating, we talked about the propagandas and about being an activist suddenly there were also eating at the next table and listening to us, and i giggle when i saw his reaction, he was like "yun ang tama" or maybe amazed to what he have heard.
Unfortunately it rains, ugh, It was very hassle to ride. Forunately it was not that traffic, and the rain has stopped. My head was in pain, and my feet was soaked in water, ugh. I realized it was in 9 in the eveining, and when i arrived it was 11, and then it was too late to sink in, that the gate was closed in that placed ugh, i need to ride on a pedicab to went to the other gate, but unfortunately there were no pedicabs around, so i have no choice but to ride on a taxi. huhu. It was P75, if it was not a highway pr if its not to late to walk outside, i don't need to ride on taxi, but the important is, i arrived safely at house.
There were no other people, and i hurriedly take off my clothes cause my head was really in pain and i just want to lay in bed. And i did that, i just take off my clothes and lay down, Ugh,, What a tiring and problematic day! I end my day with a prayer. Hope i could settle all my problems on monday.
.
It was afternoon and it's raining, and i'm all alone. The rain wasn't that heavy, but i hate it when it rains. I don't know. But raining makes me feel sad. And i realized that the weather really affects my mood. I usually get sad and frightened when raining, and many of my friends knew that.
The aura in this house was very lousy. I'm here at my Aunt's home at Paranaque since last night, slept by myself cause my cousin was working at night and my tita had a camping or let say bonding with her workmates out of the city.
Yesterday morning, i was still upset since last day because of the conflicts about my schedule in school. I really need to tagged my subjects, but the line was long, super long... And i get confused on the process of tagging, and all i knew is that, that day was the last day of tagging and paying of tuition fees cause that was also the last day of adjustment period. So i decided to pay instead of tagging my one subject left. I also had a classmate who didn't tagged her subject cause there were no available slot in our chairperson's account, and that makes her upset too. She also didn't have a P.E subject.like me. So i said to myself that it was ok for not having a P.E rather than not paying your tuition fees (cause all i knew that was the last day of payments as i have said earlier).
I pay my tuition fees even if the line was too long. I waited for 3 hours just to pay, and finally! All i knew is that i'm problem free today! Yay! I text my best friend Rejhon, if where he is, and he said he is still on the meeting with the student leaders from different universities and he also said that my crush (okay let we just call him "daddy long legs") was the speaker by that time, he was the president of Anakbayan, a communist org. And thats why i went there, but first i hesitate to go inside cause all of them was an activist but Julius and Rejhon, pull me inside and Tadaa!!!! All of them stared at us, as in we caught all of their attentions. And then i fakely listen to daddy long legs about the propagandas they planning to do. And i simply laugh, when he said like this..
NV
"Sa mga social medias.. Pwedeng ayun din ang gamitin sa mga propaganda. Yun yung ipost sa facebook, hindi yung mga kung anu-ano lang. Mga Pabebe kayo! haha"
Err, I don't know but when i hear the word "mga pa-bebe kayo" i get Kilig. hahaha I often heard it to a boy that says like that (maybe there were magic in that words).
And then, after that i find the form in my bag, and Julius said "Oh, anong hinahanap mo?"
Me: "Yung form!" Luckily the form has gone..
Julius: "Bigyan na lang uli kita, Rejhon bigyan mo nga.."
Rejhon: "Anong gusto mo yung bago?"
Me: "Oo sige."
And then Rejhon gave me the form, i don't know what the heck i did. I just fill up the form, i don't know, i'm losing my mind. And then of course the two boys were so happy, because finally, i was already a member after a year.
I didn't finished the meeting cause i have a class, and Rejhon accompanied me down the 3rd floor, and we saw Mariel looking so happy cause she already tagged her subjects and luckily she had a P.E subject, and i get upset, cause an hour ago she is the one who was very miserable about her subjects but now, i'm the one who's looking kawawa.
I got really upset, i can't think normally, added up by joining the org, ugh. Julius said awhile ago, that there will be a Cultural night, and we're going to recite a poem. I just want to escape, but Julius called me, and i promised to Rejhon that we will go home together. Ugh, After that we went to Charlie Bldg. where they introduced me as one of their "kolektibs" and gosh daddy long legs was there too, i thought they go home early. I want to talk to him when he was alone, there were time that he's like he want to talk too others but he was shy to approach. Also me, i was to shy to approach cause i was a newbie.
And then the Cultural Night begins, different orgs are there, and they showcase different talents, but most of all sung. It was fun night, and i suggest to Julius that we also sing next time.
After the cultural night, we decided to eat dinner. Maybe i really need to adjust for several changes like when were eating and i'm so full but there were rice left, i really don't want to eat but they said "kailangan mong kainin yan, kawawa naman ang mga magsasaka sa Hacienda Luisita" huhu. I forced myself to eat. Also when were eating, we talked about the propagandas and about being an activist suddenly there were also eating at the next table and listening to us, and i giggle when i saw his reaction, he was like "yun ang tama" or maybe amazed to what he have heard.
Unfortunately it rains, ugh, It was very hassle to ride. Forunately it was not that traffic, and the rain has stopped. My head was in pain, and my feet was soaked in water, ugh. I realized it was in 9 in the eveining, and when i arrived it was 11, and then it was too late to sink in, that the gate was closed in that placed ugh, i need to ride on a pedicab to went to the other gate, but unfortunately there were no pedicabs around, so i have no choice but to ride on a taxi. huhu. It was P75, if it was not a highway pr if its not to late to walk outside, i don't need to ride on taxi, but the important is, i arrived safely at house.
There were no other people, and i hurriedly take off my clothes cause my head was really in pain and i just want to lay in bed. And i did that, i just take off my clothes and lay down, Ugh,, What a tiring and problematic day! I end my day with a prayer. Hope i could settle all my problems on monday.
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