To the one who captured my heart | 01

How's life? It's been a month since we had our last conversation on IG. You know what, I'm currently listening to the songs that makes me remember you. Songs like:

• Take me home by Us the Duo
• how would you feel by Ed Sheeran
• Castle on the hill by Ed Sheeran
• Kung wala ka by Hale, one of my favorite opm songs and I believe favorite mo din kasi lagi kong napapansin na lagi mong mina-my day sa IG.
• Mundo by IV of spades kasi kamukha mo si Unique at parehong lab ko kayo ni Unique.

Currently listening to these para feel na feel ko yung pagsulat ko sayo. I really want to talk to you 

through IG kasi dun lang naman pwede, dahil hindi naman kita fino-follow na sa ibang social media and even though I have your number syempre hindi naman ako ganun pa ka-desperate to text you. Ayokong ako yung mag first move (pero parang ako naman talaga nag first move like following you first on IG then you followed me back na lang haha). So yun na nga I wanna talk to you, but I don't know how 'cause the last time that I tried to talk to you eh in-inbox zoned mo lang ako 😭😭😭Magtatanong lang naman ako about camera eh at yun nga twice mo na kong in-inbox zoned. Masakit bes. 💔 Dumating kaya sa part na naiiyak ako, maliban kasi na may PMS ako by that time at napagalitan ako, nakita kita na nag comment ka sa picture sa isa sa mga mutual friend natin 23 minutes ago so that means nag online ka pero wala ka talagang pake sa dm ko, kasi sino nga ba ako? 

Since then I tried to forget you, kaso one time yung pinsan ko bigla na lang ako tinanong kung may ASK.FM ako, sabi ko meron then I opened it again after decades then I tried to search kung may acct ka then voila! Meron nga and the last you answered to some questions ay 10 months ago lang while ako highschool pa ako last time gumamit nun. Andami kong nalaman tungkol sayo at nakakatuwa kasi madami rin tayong similarities. Naglaro pa kami ng pinsan ko which is ang gagawin ay pagco-compare nya yung sagot ko at sagot mo, pero syempre ako muna unang sasagot after nun sasabihin nya naman yung mga answers mo. Here are some of our similarities: (Disclaimer: Honest yung mga answers ko and hindi ko pa alam na may ask.fm ka, ayun na yung stand ko sa buhay.) 

• You like short hair for girls but you said that it depends naman sa shape ng face
  - ok honestly ako nagagandahan at attractive sakin yung mga short hair at fan ako ng short hair na hairstyle. But to let u know, nagpashort hair na ako di ko pa nadi-discover na may acct ka sa ask.fm baka isipin mo na nagpa short hair ako kasi nga you like short hair. Pero kinikilig ako kasi the first time we've met, short hair ako nun. Well, I do not expect anything but deep inside I asked myself "do you find me attractive kaya nun?" 😉
• You wrote poems
  - I wrote poems too for my dad and published dun sa newspaper ng school namin nung high school. I really love writing, kasi nga I can really express here. 
• You like Kodaline and Grace Vanderwaal
  -  I love Kodaline kasi naman napaka smooth and so calming ng mga songs nila. I got addicted to "All I want" nilang song kasi ang cute din ng mv and Grace Vanderwaal, I really like her voice and she played uke din so anlakas maka country (i don't know if country nga talaga ang genre nya" but I love her and she's pretty.
• You really love coffee!
  - I remember yung bio mo sa twitter "Tall, dark and refined.. Just like my coffee." haha. I start my day with a cup of coffee. Dati I can drink 3-4 cups of coffee in a day. Kaso kasi I got a lot of illness na bawal ang kape. Like sinusumpong ako ng acidity and nagtatake ako ng anti-depressants at di ako pwede uminom ng coffee, tea and chocolate. I love brewed coffee di ko matiis yan, amoy pa lang and I love white coffee too. 
• You're a late sleeper
  - Uso naman sa mga millenials matulog ng late. Ako may insomnia ako dati kaya nga ako nag call center agent eh. Char. Masaya pag gabi eh, tahimik. 
• "Trip ko ma-heart broken. hinaheart broken ko na sarili ko para di ako masaktan soon. ok dba" -- you
  - Negative thinker ako, di ko alam kung yun din ang ibig mong sabihin pero ako pag na aattract ako sa isang guy, I down myself at itinatatak sa isip ko all the negativity na hindi niya ako magugustuhan or I am thinking na baka may girlfriend na yun or of course meron na syang ibang type. So I prefered to kept it na lang sometimes to myself minsan alam din ng trusted friends ko. Basta yung crush ko lang di nakakaalam.
• Batanes is one of your dreamed place to go to.
  - High school pa lang ako I wanna migrate na sa New Zealand. Basta New zealand ang favorite country ko kasi sabi ng teacher ko nun sa AP na NZ daw ang cleanest and unpolluted country. Tapos narinig ko sa radyo nun na isa ang NZ sa mga hindi corrupted ang president. So yun I feel in love in NZ, pero may local version pala tayo ng NZ at yun nga ang Batanes. Inlove din ako sa Batanes kasi napaka payak ng buhay and sakto nagkaroon ako ng ka trabaho nun na Ivatan and balak namin pumunta dun siguro pag naka-grad na ako. Pero malay mo magkita tayo dun or sabay tayo pumunta dun, tas di na tayo babalik dito sa Manila haha. 
• You're a street-smart kind of guy
  - It's cute 'coz someone asked you in your acct na "Ano ang unang mga bagay na napapansin mo kapag nakakakilala ka ng isang tao?" and you answered "INTELLIGENCE". My answer kasi in this question is "the way they talked to you or how they handle the conversation or kung may sense sila kausap. Kasi I'm not into intelligent talaga, gusto ko yung mga street-smart" that's the verbatim. And then yun nga while we're scrolling down someone asked you again "What type of guy are you?" and you said be specific and someone replied "Are you: 1. The sporty guy. 2. The funny guy. 3. Smart guy. 4. The low maintenance. 5. The gamer. 6. The breadwinner. 7. The artistic. 8. No gf ever since. 9. The bookworm. 10. The husband material." And syempre my cousin asked me what are my thoughts about you. "I answered numbers: 2 and 4" And your answer was "2,4,7. not really that 'smart' guy well i can say im street smart. there are many many types of 'smart'. So yun nga maybe I liked you because it's obvious na you're a street smart guy 'cause you know a lot of things and nung nakausap kita may sense ka kausap and ang funny and witty mo din (like me) sa mga videos and pic mo sa IG.
• You handled the people you don't like by keeping a distance.
  -  I think a lot of people naman keeps distance to the people they dislike. I mean syempre umcomfy when they're around you at mahiyain din kasi ako, ayokong nakikita nila ako.
• One of your favorite subject in photography is "laughter"
  - Syempre nga naman wedding ang madalas mo i-cover and wedding is one of the happiest in life. Ako bilang amateur pa lang, candid candid muna sa mga family gatherings yung essence nun kailangan ma-capture.
• You're an ambivert.
  - Ambivert means your both introvert and extrovert. Ambivert din ako. Pero nung younger years ko talaga elementary days in particular, introvert ako. Pinapagalitan ako ng nanay ko dahil may sarili akong mundo. Sobrang mahiyain ako nun, mahinhin, tahimik, minsan di nakikipag socialize. laging nakayuko pag naglalakad, hindi rin ako palakwento. Nung nag high school na lang talaga ako nag bloom and found out na kalog pala ako (sabi nila). Walang hiya ako lalo na sa mga taong close ko at comportable kong kasama. People cannot believe tuloy na mahiyain pa rin ako sa ngayon.
• If you're given a chance to have a super powers what would it be: Teleportation- Actually dalawa sinabi mo pero if I were given a chance to have a super powers I'll choose Teleportation, Invisibility and Time traveling. 
• You like Skinny Love by Birdy and Almost lover by A fine frenzy
  - Ang sarap kasi naman nila pakinggan and nagustuhan ko yung almost lover kasi kanta ko yun dati sa classmate ko na bessie ko tapos naging crush ko pero syempre di niya alam.
• You look more matured compare to your biological age.
  - Pareho tayo, malaking bulas kasi ako so people cannot believe sa biological age ko sanay naman na ako. Ikaw din matangkad kasi and sa unang tingin mukhang matured mag-isip.