The old soul millenial

Dear 20 year old self, This would be the last teenage drama note you'll ever receive from my 19 year old self. In just a few days, another year will come though Age doesn't really matter and age is just a number. And yep, I don't celebrate my birthday too so turning into 20 doesn't really matter to me.  Well, my 19 year old self is writing this because for her, she experienced a lot of things so far. I think this phase of her life is the beginning of what they called "adulting" and for her it was really uneasy.  My 19 year old point-of-view: These past few days, 4 days to be exact, I feel so worthless. All I did was to sleep longer than normal. It's like I don't wanna wake up and I dont want to face the world. I feel guilty at the same time 'cause I'll just woke up to eat and the fact is I'm just staying at my aunt's house. I don't go to school for 2 weeks now and I resigned at work. I wanna withdraw myself to everyon...

This would be my first entry here on which I called " Teenage Damn Feelings". This is the collection of thoughts and feelings of a typical teenager like me, which I usually do not tell to anyone orally cause I know they don't feel what I feel, or I think they'll  just judge me without knowing my whole story. 01-02-2017 6:00 pm. I spent most of my time just lying on the bed after eating a burger and just sipped a milkshake. This is the reason why I gained weight when I'm depressed, I ate alot cause there's pleasurable feeling when you're eating. It's like " I'm having companion atleast, thank you so much food!" The feeling that "buti pa ang pagkain laging andyan para sayo ".. I hate the feeling when you say to someone that you're sad, or depressed. Cause I'll see it in their eyes, and it's like " wala akong pake sa nararamdaman mo, basta ako masaya ako ngayon.. " So what I did is just to keep it by mys...

October 21 2016 Saturday It’s a fine and an ordinary Saturday. I have a scheduled gala with my previous college blockmate.It happened that I didn’t go to work last night , so I’m in the condition of meeting up with a long time-no-see friend. Well I’m so excited to travel quite far, cause I remember my Spotify was turned into premium now. I just downloaded the songs on demand right now, and I just loved that feeling, doing soundtrip while travelling.    My friend and I just went to Trinoma and SM north. It happened that the two of us were trying to find the POPCULTURE store in Trinoma, we’ll just buy some stuff and the rest would be window shopping. After we bought some stuffs in Trinoma we moved to SM North. I’m so thirsty and hungry by that time, and I badly needed a Milktea. Yes, a Milktea. There’s something pleasurable to Milkteas that’s why I love them. We also tried Bibimbob, cause I don’t want to eat fried and unhealthy food. I’m trying to be on Health living side....

June 21, 2015 Sunday    . It was afternoon and it's raining, and i'm all alone. The rain wasn't that heavy, but i hate it when it rains. I don't know. But raining makes me feel sad. And i realized that the weather really affects my mood. I usually get sad and frightened when raining, and many of my friends knew that. The aura in this house was very lousy. I'm here at my Aunt's home at Paranaque since last night, slept by myself cause my cousin was working at night and my tita had a camping or let say bonding with her workmates out of the city. Yesterday morning, i was still upset since last day because of the conflicts about my schedule in school. I really need to tagged my subjects, but the line was long, super long... And i get confused on the process of tagging, and all i knew is that, that day was the last day of tagging and paying of tuition fees cause that was also the last day of adjustment period. So i decided to pay instead of tagging my one subj...

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